The Meaning of Friendship

I've been thinking a lot lot lately about the true meaning of friendship.

Does being a good friend mean you have to bend over backwards for someone and do everything that they ask you to do,  or can you just slide by with just listening to them whenever they need a shoulder to cry on.

I have had man friendships in the past and I only still talk to a select few and thats because I can actually relate to them. All of the others pretended that they cared, and to pretended to actually want to help out when in the end, all they were really doing was keeping tabs on what good they did for you. 

Am I supposed to keep tabs on everything good I did for you, so that whenever we argue or I need something from you, I can throw it in your face what I did. I don't think thats fair and I have never done anything like that. But, maybe I should start because that seems to be the in thing now-a-days. 

Some of my friends usually complain about how I am or how they think I act around my family, but in the end if they are complaining about me then they really aren't as close to me as I thought they were. 

In the end all I can do is be myself and if none of my friends like it then there is really no need for us to be friends. Because to me friendship is always caring about that person no matter what, not doing "nice" things just so you can get something in return, and not complaining about that person to your family all the time making them out to be the worst person in the world.

Stressin Over Life

What are we living for is the question I ask myself everyday. Are we living for ourselves or are we just living to please everyone else? Why is it that when the future is just starting to look bright a gray cloud has to arrive. Are we not supposed to be happy throughout life? Can we smile now without having to worry about someone or something coming along to erase it off our face later.

The stress in life would cause most, if not all, to just feel like giving up on life. But the hardest thing to do is not let it get to you. With the support of family and friends things in life can always be put in to perspective. Though it feels like the weight of the world has been placed on your shoulders, they are always there to help you carry it along.

With the stress of school, work, and anything else in life I know that I have a support group helping me along the way. I also know that when the gray cloud decides to show its face my friends and family will be the sunlight that sends it away.

Walking Around the Lake

Recently, I logged into my facebook account and I noticed that just about everybody that I went to college with in Oklahoma is now either engaged or already married. If you wanted to become engaged to someone the tradition in Oklahoma was to walk around the lake five times backwards.

This got me to thinking.

Am I ready to settle down and get married?

I do not think that I am ready for such a huge responsibility and I feel as if I am to young to even think about getting married. I just want to live my life to the fullest and learn how to take care of myself (without moms/dads help) before I take on the task of doing it for me and someone else.

I'm pretty sure that by the time I graduate I will have already achieved most of my goals and that i feel will be the time to start the commitment process. Until then I will just continue to congratulate all my friends on all of there wedded bliss.

Job Hunting

Driving.......

Asking......

More driving.........

This is all I did when I was searching for a job. I would go somewhere and ask are you hiring sometimes you hear yes, other times its we are accepting applications. This process of filling out applications and having to call to see if whats going on with it, is long a very tiring.



In the end though it usually pays off. Only after you have shaken hands with many strangers, and filled up your gas tank for the fifth time that week. The only thing on your mind is that you need this job and you have no choice but to endure the struggle.



With the economy going further and further down its making this process even longer and tedious. People are losing there jobs and this makes it harder for the ones that already didnt have jobs, to find a job. What does the future have in store for us as a whole is the question that everyone is asking themselves.